Calling All Prayer Warriors

Some of you I don't know very well. Some of you I don't know at all. Some of you I know as well as I know the back of my own hand.

Regardless, I have a request to make of you.

Could you please pray? Our second born child is struggling with life in general right now. We are fairly confident that we are dealing with some serious attachment issues. Something that I never in my wildest dreams thought we'd deal with with him.

But we are. Actually I am.

With Jason? He's a normal little boy. Happy. As obedient as a five year old can be. Loving. Laughing. With me? Total opposite. Screaming. Refusing flat-out to do anything that is asked of him. And now ramping it up even more to things that I won't mention on a public blog.

Suffice it to say, the relationship between me and my son is far from good currently. Could you please pray? Pray for Will.

Pray that he starts believing me when I say I love him and am thankful that he is my son. Pray that he can understand that just because more children join a family doesn't mean that mommy's love is stretched so thin that there is not enough to go around. Pray that Satan looses his grip on our dear son and that Will allows Jesus to take over his life.

And pray for me as well? That I can lean on Jesus continually. That I can love Will rather than begin to push him away. That I can hug him and kiss him and simply love him unconditionally no matter what kind of issues I deal with from day to day.

And for Jason? As he tries to keep his wife out of the insane assylum.

And for Addie and Jack? As they watch and try to keep their normal lives in tact.

This past week has been worse than normal.

Why? All I know is that I took him with me (rather than either of the other two) when I met some friends for supper. You would think that that singled out treatment would help our relationship. You would think that a special ice cream date with mommy would help rather than hinder.

Instead, it causes a whole new batch of issues. It's proof that mommy loves him just as much as she loves the other children...and for that one evening he allowed me to get into his heart. Aparently I got too close, for starting the next morning the actions ramped up and haven't slowed down since. You see? The thing about a child who is struggling with attachment issues is that they will do everything they can to prove to themselves that mommy (most often the female caregiver as she is the most available and the most involved in his/her life) really doesn't love him/her. To prove that mommy is just bluffing when she says I love you. To prove that no matter what he/she is in complete control of his/her life.

Right now, Will seems to be full of anger. He will do anything and everything just to see if he can make mommy upset. Unfortunately, sometimes it works and that is the absolute worst thing that can happen. If I get upset, he wins. He then believes that he is in control rather than mommy being in control.

It's a fine line. Please pray that Jesus will fill us with his wisdom. That He will bless us as a family and that we will come out on the other side of this strong in our love for each other.

Thank you so very much. I know that with prayers of many and a little professional help we can press on to full relationship restoration with our sweet little boy.